HO (versi jedi)

Bismillahir rahmanir rahim….

Tahniah kerana anda sedar matlamat hidup kita adalah 51:56 dan 2:30.

Konon-kononnya kita dah bawa dan ikut usrah bertahun lamanya. Last-last, tiba d Malaysia, dah BFG, kita pun larut dalam kehidupan sbg HO dan jangankan x bawak usrah, nak ikut usrah pn liat sokmo. Atau pun, kita ingat kita bekerja (eg jd ajk kebersihan program ziarah rumah orang tua2), tp ada kerja yg lg utama perlu kita buat. huuuu… ada org mungkin berani keluarkan statement – sekarang masa utk masuk masyarakat, buat apa sibuk2 usrah.. Tapi sorry sir, and after all these years of tarbiyah with all the endless syllabus/daurahs etc; I beg to defer (ie boleh encik Tarik kata2 itu? Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata maut padahnya.. *sambil angkat kening dan cekak pinggang*).. heheeee…

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saya juga pernah atau mungkin sedang melalui fasa2 itu, jadi sama2 kita meluruskan orientasi kita di jalan miri-bintulu dakwah… ayuh atas dasar taa’ruf-tafahum-takaful, kita saling meluruskan! *tumbukan angin ke udara tanda bersemangat*

masih saya ingat 5/6 tahun sudah, daurah paling sentap pernah sy dapat – ISK namanya. Seperti berasap rasanya dapat daurah tu, walaupun ketika musim sejuk. Manakan tidak, ini betul2 buat saya lihat dunia dlm bentuk yg baru dan Berjaya menjawab persoalan2 kemanan dunia yg telah lama menghantui saya semenjak kanak2 lagi (Sy suka baca surat khabar/buku ktk kanak2, suka curi dengar abi bersembang.. jd sy tahu sedikit sebanyak ttg perang soviet-vs-afghanistan, peritiwa ambon, bosnia-herzegovina semenjak saya kanak2).. kita pun belajar lah graf ISK, graf dia mcm sebuah bukit yg mempunyai 2 puncak – puncak yg awal2 tuh tinggi sket, namanya Abassiyah, n puncak kedua tu rendah sket dan bernama Usmaniyah…

walau bagaimana pun, kita kini berada di Fasa Mekah, iaitu Fasa Pembinaan Individu.. jadi, kita kena kerja untuk Islam macam org zaman mekah – bina individu2 muslim.. bina, bina dan terus bina.. inilah asas/foundation kebangkitan islam.. even tamadun Islam dah terbina sampai ustaziyatul alam, masih kita perlu kekalkan foundation ‘individu muslim’ tuh.. apa pernah anda terjumpa orang bina2 bangunan, lepas Berjaya pasang atap, kita pun cabut foundation? Sodap2 je nak cabut foundation… lepas dpt ISK, kita pun rasa terpanggil untuk bawa usrah, nak bina orang.. punya lah kita bawak bertahun2, sampai reasons why kita ikut/bawa usrah pn dah x hengat.. usrah semakin hambar, kita pun makin x jelas kenapa nk ikut/bawa usrah.. lagi2 kalau usrah online yg banyak masalah teknikal tu.. itu pasal bila allah sibukkan dgn HO, kita pn x terasa urgensi nak bawa ataupun nak ikut usrah.. kan??? Ngaku je lah…

alkisah, bila saya dah start HO, rasa rindu bangat nak bawa/ikut usrah.. rasa mcm useless gila.. apa sumbangan aku kepada islam? Apa beza kita HO yg ikut tarbiyah, dgn HO lain? Bila dgr junior yg jd naqibah dan bawa usrah, tp rasa x bersemangat, rasa macam – “awat lah hang ni take for granted? U would one day, miss all the time u spent to bina manusia… bak mai anak usrah hang kat cheq!”..

lebih merasuk jiwa, bila dengar kata2 Umar al-Faruq.. *ketuk2 dada macam king kong*

Once 'Umar al-Khattab r.a. asked the companions around him,
"Dream up!"
One guy answered,
"I dream to have a mountain of gold so that I can donate the whole lot of it for the course of Islam!"
'Umar insisted,
"Dream up!"
Another guy said,
"I dream that this place will be filled by diamonds so that I can donate them all for Islam!"
As though still not satisfied with the answers, once again 'Umar pressed,
"Dream up!"
"We do not know what else to say, O Amirul Mu'minin!"
And as the legend goes, 'Umar envisioned his dream, of which probably one of his greatest and most legendary sayings:
"I dream of rijal (young men) whose qualities are comparable to those of Abu 'Ubaidah al-Jarrah, Muadz ibn Jabal and Salim (Abu Huzaifah's servant), of whom I shall call for assistance to glorify and exalt His words.

(credits : Jedi APG)

ok2.. anda kelihatan resah kerana penulisan ini mungkin mencabar dan mencalar perasaan anda.. (ke saya je yang perasan… fine.. ) back to basic… tahukah anda bahawa sebenaqnya, matlamat hidup kita, ubudiyyah n khilafah itu sgt berkait, dan IMPOSSIBLE anda dpt laksanakn ubudiyyah tanpa dpt laksanakan khilafah… eg “saya HO, sgt sibuk.. sy x rasa sy dpt buat tugas khilafah sbb sy kan HO – sibuk… jd, sy rasa nak buat ubudiyyah saja, saya jaga tarbiyah zatiyyah saya..” I.M.P.O.S.S.I.B.L.E kerana :

1) Lihat pada the living manuals – para anbiya dan para rasul

Premis 1 : allah memerintahkan kita manusia utk buat ubudiyyah

Premis 2 : kita blur macam mana nak buat ubudiyyah.. atas kasih sayang-Nya, allah utuskan para rasul dlm bentuk manusia, untuk kita jadikan living manual/panduan mcm mana nak laksanakan kerja ubudiyyah

Premis 3 : semua rasul buat kerja dakwah/khilafah… dan itu lah kerja mereka yg paling utama..

Kesimpulan : kerja dakwah/khilafah adalah subset terbesar dlm ubudiyyah..

2) Cara ubudiyyah kpd Allah – mengagungkan dan lemah-lembut

Premis 1 : Imam Ar-Razi kata cara kita beribadah kpd Allah ada 2 aspek – Ta’zhim (mengagungkan) & Syafaqah (lemah lembut)

Premis 2a – Ta’zhim : Apakah cara mengagungkan Allah paling utama? Pastinya, dengan menyebut-nyebut keagungan Allah kpd org lain dan ajak org lain utk agungkan Allah skali..

Eg anda fan Jep Sepahtu.. Apa cara nak tunjukkan anda begitu mengagungkan Jep? Anda pi canang kat semua org yg anda jumpa betapa lawaknya Jep and ajak org lain utk sama2 jd fan macam anda..

Premis 2b – Syafaqah : Apakah cara anda sebagai hamba Allah berlemah-lembut pada hamba Allah yang lain? Pastinya, dgn meng-offer benda paling best kat hamba Allah yg lain – syurga.. ie kena suruh org lain buat baik (dakwah), barulah dia dpt masuk syurga..

Eg anda fan Jep Sepahtu and dia akan bg t-shirt exclusive free akan diberi kepada mana2 fan yang berkelakuan baik. Atas rasa kasih sayang anda sbg seorng fan kpd fan yg lain, tentu anda akan suruh fan lain berkelakuan baik utk dpt hadiah tu…

Kesimpulan :  untuk laksanakan tugas ubudiyyah yg merangkumi ke-dua2 aspek ta’zhim dan syafaqah; nak tak nak, hang kena juga buat kerja khilafah..

Ada point ke-tiga, tp sudah agak lewat utk sy menulis… akan sy sambung jika allah beri kelapangan.. tp andai allah menyusun yg lebih baik, dapatkan buku ‘Qawaid Dakwah’ di pasaran sekarang untuk mengetahui point ketiga… ohoi! Akhir kalam, semoga allah menguatkan kita untuk menjadi ‘abid dan khilafah! Aminn.. Renung2kan kembali apa matlamat hidup kita sebenaqnya.. Are we in the right position n having the right attitude to get our job done?

HO (versi umum)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Saya seharusnya bercakap sekarang, tp instead jadi menulis saja.. saya ada kawan2 n juniors yg Tanya pengalaman bekerja di Sarawak, n saya hutang sbb x sempat nak reply lg.. there r too many patients to VE n babies to deliver (??).

Siapa saya?

Saya HO, di 0&G (sakit puan dan perbidanan) di sebuah hospital di Sarawak. Saya first poster. Masuk kerja bulan Disember 2013. Saya asal Rawang. Saya telah di-extend selama  3 bulan kerana prestasi yg x memuaskan. Tambahan pula, HOD kami tegas orangnya, dan ingin kami betul2 terel. Sekarang sy tgh fening mcm mana mahu keluar dept ni sebab specialist kata, kalau mahu keluar, kena buat 3 caeser. Gila…

Sarawak?

Sarawak sebuah negeri yg best dgn komposisi demografi yg agak berbeza dr semananjung. Ada ramai org Iban. Di Bandar tmpt sy tinggal, ramai org Cina juga. It makes u feel Malaysian. They are ALL nice people if you are nice to them. You can try new food, n Miri best specialities (from what I sempat makan kat pantry dgn nurses) include ikan masin, cencaluk, ikan fusuk, ikan tahai etc. Utk memeriahkan rasa patriotic saya, sy telah membeli n membaca 2 buah buku – “Many colors, one race” (by anas zubedy) & “Unmistakably Chinese, Genuiney Malaysian” (by Rita Sim)

HO?

Despite being extended for 3 months, saya perlu mengaku bahawa sy x menyesal dtg Sarawak. Training bagus alhmdlh. Apa x bagusnya, siap suruh buat caeser 3 kali, baru boleh keluar department. Lama-lama, alhmdlh rasa very comfortable bekerja dkt dewan bersalin dan kawasan yg sewaktu dengannya. Saya memang loser bab motor skills nih, I’m clumsy, lemah bab2 kemahiran hands-on. Awal-awal dulu, ambil darah pun canggung, VE (vaginal examination) pun masih malu2 dgn patient, x berani mahu korek2 cari pangkal Rahim. Kini, tidak lagi. Bahkan, kadang2 anda jadi lebih eksaited utk belajar benda baru. Tambahan pula, Sarawak akn hantar HO yg dilatih d hospital2 besar, ke hospital2 di pedalaman nun waktu hang jadi MO nanti, so they would train you so you can survive alone out there. They have their own protocols (Sarawak emergency etc), sesuai dgn keperluan khusus negeri ini.

Doktor Muslim

So far, paling2 pun, saya x dapat lah leave impact apa sgt kat patient. X ada pulak patient yg mintak mahu usrah dgn saya.. haha.. Paling2 pun, tlg mereka jaga aurat di O&G tu, abide by their request utk female doctors, dan ingtkn mereka utk berdoa. tp always remain peramah dgn patient.. clerk tp buat ala2 bersembang.. eg amek family history, tp tanya mcm concern psl parents depa.. “mak ayah macam mana puan? Sihat? Gembira?” happy sgt bila ada pt yg dr pedalaman ke atau marginalized ke, yg dtg for her first ever hospital visit in her life, Tp bila kita Tanya “takut x nk dtg hospital lg?“  - “sik (tak) takut sbb doktor2 baik”.. hehe.. handle ur patients with care, walaupun deme uneducated etc, explain dlm layman term apa kita tgh buat kat diorng.. it’s their body, n they have right to know what we are doing to the jasad..  juga, jaga hubungan dgn nurses. Nurses best gila, kalau kita rapat dgn deme, they would help us, would ajak kita join makan kat pantry, boleh sembang, gelak2, geletek2 together. Even the PPKs, the cleaners. Always greet ppl. Layan semua staff x kisah pangkat, sbb they all matter.. tahukah anda, cleaner pun ada kena oncall kat labor room, n bila pt selesai beranak, deme kena cepat2 bersihkan sbb nnt ada org lain nk guna bed nak beranak.. pernah ada satu emergency cesar kami delay sbb tak tau mana pi cleaner, mogok mungkin.. haha.. dan, manfaatkan masa utk buat Tarbiyah Dzatiyah. X yah rasa guilty tinggalkan kerja n p answer your BIGGEST BOSS’ call, selak quran dlm ward, baca mathurat otw pi kerja.

Life?

Org kata HO x dak life. Sy rasa it all depends on how u define life. Kata banna dalam risalahnya ‘ke mana kita menyeru manusia’, ada 4 matlamat hidup HO (manusia) :

 (1) hedonistic (47:12) – eg time post call or weekend off, pi tgk movie, enjoy tmpt makan baru, karaoke, buat hobi pelik spt belajar tarian salsa utk suka2

(2) berhias n berbangga (3:14) : “yeay gaji masuk! OMG, I work very hard on call, kena maki dgn MO for this gaji, n I deserve it.. I can go belanja to buy new bags, shoes, pi facial yadayadayada”

(3) buat kacau (2:204-205) : “jom sabo(taj) MO ni.. biar dia kena marah kawkaw dgn specialist”

(4) mukmin (22:77-78) : “alhamdulillah, weekend off.. ana nak ziarah lah adik usrah ana kat $%$@” “haa.. saya dah solat.. sudahkah awak solat? Kalau belum, mari saya setel-kan patient awk, n awak p solat”

So, mana satu adlh anda dan saya?

Jika anda adalah nombor 4, boleh proceed baca post seterusnya.. (klik sini)

Global March to Jerusalem 2013 (GMJ) at Moscow

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Disclaimer :

• my support toward pro-palestine cause is not affiliated toward any societies or bodies that I'm involved. It is purely personal and individual.
• this post is NOT to encourage the readers to commit any risky decisions that may jeopardize the readers' safety, future and whatnots. At your own risk.
• the aim of this post is to provide non-russian-speaking muscovites who are into this palestinian struggle with GMJ information 

Few weeks before :

This year, many friends back in Malaysia and in the other parts of the world were talking and promoting this GMJ event. They assured me that this was supposed to be world-wide event, so check your country. Did few googlings, but found only previous GMJs info with one of it - a youtube video of GMJ12 event in front of the Israeli embassy in Moscow. Not much on GMJ13. And, I remembered that a friend of mine had accidentally saw a Palestinian protest when she was walking out of this one metro station. She uploaded few pictures at Facebook. I PM-ed her to confirm which station - Ulitsa 1905. And, I made promise to myself - I would just wait at the station on that GMJ day (with my books because the state exam would be on June 10th and 11th) just in case there would be such event in here - Moscow.

Few days before : 

On the early week of GMJ's event, I did few more googlings and tadaa! The official GMJ page announced that there would be 2 events in Russia :

on 7th afternoon : a gathering in front of Israeli embassy in moscow

on 8th : cultural events, place and time not mentioned

source : http://gm2j.com/main/blog/2013/06/03/the-people-of-the-world-demand-the-liberation-of-jerusalem-on-friday-7th-june-2013/

Night of June 6th :

I've found an entry that they change the place and timing. It would be on Saturday, June 8th at Ulitsa 1905 metro. And, the best part is it is approved by the municipality/goverment so I won't be risking anything.

http://www.islamnews.ru/news-140049.html

Showtime!

pre-event

this is how 'Jerusalem' is written in Russian cyrillic

one of the banners

the man in white was the maestro of the chants

palestine - people of russia are with you!

one of the very few women at the protest

my folded flier

another flier

Feedback :

1. Out of place. My mastery of Russian language is not convincing enough and being an introvert, to come up and initiate conversation with strangers in another foreign language was a huge task. I tried asking a woman when the event would start, but being Russian-ized, she offered me russian hospitality - stoic face, no smile, short answer and simply walk away from me (I wished she invited me along to walk together to join the crowds). Those people there seems to know each other that I almost believed it was a closed event, only for those who are invited. A man asked my help to take his picture. Towards the end, alhamdulillah, a pregnant camerawoman hijabi approached me and asking for my contacts info. Upon leaving, one of the flyer boy thanked me in English. (I understand simple 'spasiba' anyway.. hehe..) For most of the time, I felt like I was invisible, hiding behind my camera to take pictures. 
2. The size of the crowd. Hopefully, more Russians are aware about palestinian issue and events. From my observation, there are around 25-30 persons who were holding flags and banners. And there was people at the periphery who mostly was the media people or the committee itself. The surrounding Russians who approached the square were few. The flyer boys should have been more proactive in giving away the fliers to those Russians. Despite the small number of participants, there were muslim women in hijab, the non-hijabis, christian, typical russian-looking granddads, arabic-speaking arabs/non-arabs, the slit-eyed asians and many more. 
3.  The content of the event. There were speeches by many people with the cameraman recording them. No amplifier, and thus the speech could only be heard within few metres radius. Few non-synchronous chanting and yells. Pre-event rehearsals or training of the yell would be nice, since most of the wordings are in Arabic. I am praying hard that one day, GMJ Moscow could have their flash mob, and better, at the Arbat or the Red Square. This Palestinian issue could be sensitive, but if is tackled rightly and presented to the public in a fun way, we can get this humanitarian message through.  

Overall

Upon leaving the square, I noticed a Russian man of his mid-20s in maroon tight trouser and yellow polo shirt approaching the square. His face was lit with youth idealism and he keenly asked what we had just now. The flyer boy who just thanked me in English explained to him that it was of Palestine and it just finished. On my way back home in the metro, I noticed the same Russian man - this time his face was wearing the usual Russian grim expression. 2 different expression from one same person. It was heart-warming to witness that even the grim Russians have the spark of goodness and idealism in their hearts to make the world a better place. 

And despite my critics, I must say that the experience is priceless since it was my first time attending protest. I feel very uplifted to exercise my right of speech freedom. 

Read GMJ around the world - http://gm2j.com/main/blog/2013/06/10/the-people-of-the-world-take-another-step-towards-liberating-jerusalem-sending-a-letter-of-hope-to-its-people/

Allahu'alam. Allah knows best.

kaca tv dan kaca cinema

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

sudah lama x menulis..
*straight to the point sbb bateri sudah mahu habis*

KACA TV

bbrp bulan sudah, penulis dan teman2 muslimat terlibat utk shooting sebuah prog ala2 nona versi muslimah.
rasional penglibatan penulis dan teman2 muslimat adlh krn ia program yg targetnya muslimat..
maka, sebaik dimaklumkan, bersidanglah kami serumah dan teman2 utk menyiapkan props2, gotong royong bagai...

*charger dah psg, so no rush*

akhirnya tibalah hari shooting.. sesampainya para kru, deme menginspect latar tmpt.. tuan kameraman agk kurng berpuas hati lantas kami diminta menutup side2 kurng lawa utk kamera by kain... termasuklah di atas sebuah meja yg terdapat sebuah printer.. printer diangkat dan kain perlu diletakkan di atas meja.. tuan kameraman membantu proses tersebut, dan hamek kau! terkeluar 2 ekor lipas dr bwh printer menyusup laju. cess.. tuan kameraman agak terkejut (bahkan mungkin melatah)... begitu juga penulis, bukan sbb terkejut, tp sbb malu besar... haiyo... rasanya agak ketara emosi malu, tuan kameraman kata 'x pe, rilek bos.rilek..' walopn dia sbntr td terkezut dgn kemunculan lelipas td. utk cover baik punya, penulis cuba mengatakan dgn tenang 'summer ni mmg byk lipas'... jantung ibarat terhempas ke diaphragm, kulit muka menebal setebal tembok kremlin gitu, panas je rasa muka... dpn2 kru tv jugak lipas mahu keluar.. tp, itu lah antara peristiwa2 bersama ex-teman serumah yg akn bisa memecahkan perut hingga ke hari ini.. masalah lipas ini telah kami alami sejak awal2 kami pindah masuk ke rumah kami.. menurut tuan rumah, hal ini kerana penyewa2 sblm kami x membersihkan rumah dgn tuntas dan x simpan/discard mknn dgn elok... dah bertahun kami cuba get rid of them, dan usaha tersebut berterusan hingga k hari ini..

antara perkara lain yg menarik perhatian penulis adlh bendera palestin bersaiz A4 hand-made yg ditampal di dinding bilik kami diminta utk diturunkan.. bendera itu seketul duduknya kat dinding, mmg obvious.. (muffler palestin di kepala katil boleh dibiarkan sbb it's small).. isu sensitip katanya.. ia seakan memberitahu kita bhw for such issue, kena ada higher authority yg endorse... huu.. walopn isu2 palestin sudah byk kuar at tv, still isu ini masih belum di-masyarakat-kan betul2... so, they are still lots of work to be done supaya semua org comfortable with this issue, dan mmg boleh izzah/flaunt it di mana2 dan bila2..

so tibalah hari ia perlu on-air.. i was aware of it, tp penulis x gemar melihat muka sendiri di tv, dan x maklumkn pd ahli keluarga yg lain ttg siaran tersebut... alih2 ada plak sedara tepon suruh bukak tv channel skian2... nasib baik, bukak2 dah iklan dan nak habes.. hoyeah! at the same time, kat fb, ada bbrp akhawat yg menegur and congratulate the team.. hu.. izzahnya deme bila perihal DnT kuar TV... on a second thought, penulis merasakan it isn't just about me or my friends @ tv, deeper than that, it is DnT... so, pttnye penulis kenalah rse excited mcm akhawat lain juga sbb bukan muka penulis di situ sbnrnya, tp DnT tuh.. huuu..

KACA CINEMA

hasil gugling penulis, atenye, one of my fave author - inche mitch albom dan one of my fave director - inche steven spielberg (me love sci-fi!) share the same mentor/naqib/murabbi! bahkan, one of albom's book - 'have a little faith' is all about their mentor - inche robert lewis, a famous conservative rabbi.. tinggi sungguh skill murabbi beliau.. =.='

We H.E.A.R.T Ramy Essam

Assalamualaikum wrt.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Let's make this quick & clean.

It is my dream to found a Malaysia-based radio station, in English and Islamic. :)
Because there're a lot of English/Arabic Islamic singers out there who sing good songs!
Hoyeah!
(Btw, can I be a the DJ? hu.. there's this one pakcik that I had good time talking with, and he said that I spoke to fast, that it was very good for radio station.. because DJs need to say a lot of things within limited time..)

And, this is another creative mind that I tabik-ed! (aaluted)
RAMY ESSAM. An Egyptian. A revolutioner. Anti-Mubarak.
(before him, I liked Tamer Hosny, an Egyptian singer. =.="' He sang catchy songs, and I don't understand most of the lyrics. But, during the tsaurah/revolution, from what I followed on the news; this very singer was pro-Mubarak. He was captured by the protesters and he cried 'Papa.. Papa..' referring to his Mubarak. And since then, I like him not.)

Here are Ramy Essam's songs.

1) RAMY ESSAM's signature song was 'Irhal' which was sang @ Tahrir Square, rated as the 3rd most influential song on history. (believe me)

2) This is one of his songs that has subs.

3) He sings for Syria also.

4) But, the one that I love most is this.. *screammmm!!!*

Subhanallah! There are too many bright minds out there. How great Allah is, that He gives such creativity to His slaves.. If His slaves' creativity awes us, then imagine how Allah's own creativity would awe us!!! :)

And, I must say, if I could choose where I was born, I wish I was an Egyptian. They are great ppl! Rasulullah saw said the best soldiers are Egyptian. That's why before liberating Al-Quds from the Crusaders, Saladin liberated Egypt so that he could included those Egyptians into his army and marched toward al-Quds. Ramy is not the first Egyptian that amaze me. There's a lot - Hassan al-Banna, Syed Qutb, Yusuf al-Qardhawi, Asma' Mahfouz (go google this girl.. she won the Sakharov's Prize!), you-name-it..

Above is what we call art/music.. Good music creates awareness and bad music creates ignorance..

Notakakigugel: atenye, kan best tajuk lagu seperti 'Revolusi di Muka Buku' (instead of Cinta Muka Buku) atau 'Cintaku Memang di Mata Pedang' (instead of  Cintaku bukan di atas kertas).. Barulah henshin! Hihihi.. kun rajulan! :)

You don't really get it, right?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Allahumma bariklana fi Rajab wa Sya'ban, wa ballighna Ramadhan.

Mari menggatal dgn tulis di blog yg sudah lama tidak dituliskan. *gaya te-bersin krn allergic dgn habuk2 di lmn sesawang yg sgt bersawang / berhabuk*

Sudah berbulan-bulan terfikir utk membuang sesawang di laman sesawang yang satu ini, bahkan semenjak dpt tafsir surah Qalam dlm usrah berbulan-bulan dahulu. Oh!

Tema penulisan hari ini adalah spt tajuk di atas iaitu - You don't really get it, right?

Kejadian 1

Begini, pernah suatu masa purba dahulu kala, ada seorang kawan XX ini (mungkin sedang mood swing) ter-cakap kasar sama gua, walhal dia mmg terkenal dgn her composed, in-control charachter. Hu.. Wrong timing, krn gua pun iman lemah saat itu, lalu memang terasa.. Kalau jumpa, asik dok teringat je scene itu.. *tsk tsk.. haram x pemaap btoi.. ala2 I forgave, but I don't forget gituh..* Atenye, bbrp lama kemudian, sy lepak di tempat beliau ketika beliau dan temannya sedang main masak2. Temannya sedang dlm situasi annoyed / mood swing lalu dengan automatisnya, menjadi annoying kpd org2 sekeliling. Tp XX ni gila sabaq, layan saja.. Kalau lah sy pakai kasutnya (wearing her shoes), barangkali sudah berhenti main masak2 ka; baling sudip plastik kat org tu kah etc.. And an ilham hit me, 'ya Allah, sabaq gila XX ni.. Die x explode pn.. Maybe dia explode pd org yg die trust, di mana org tu akn forgive+forget.. Aku patut rasa honour-ed dia explode kat aku dolu2'. Dan, sy rasa, kita sebenarnya patut appreciate bila org mengamuk/explode etc kat kita, sbb die trust kita, sbb kita yakin 'he/she would accept us as we are'.. Mcm gaduh dgn adik2 dulu, berdarah-darah, calar-balar; tapi lepas tu boleh makan aiskrim sama-sama.. Oh! Oh! :)

Kejadian 2

Pernah suatu masa purba dahulu kala, ummi mengandungkan adik kami yg keberapa entah (Kejadian mendapat adik bg keluarga kami adalah a bi-annual event). Mcm kasihan ummi uruskan kami sorang2 sbb abi pulang lewat.. Kalau nk tlg, ummi suruh buat homework / tidur awal.. Hari itu, mmg sy agak geram dgn abi, sbb abi pulang sgt lewat, hingga kami semua dah masuk bilik tidur, beliau x pulang2 lagi.. Ummi gaya 'chill' ja, tp sy sendiri yg pendam perasaan kat abi nih... X dak org boleh tlg ummi.. Dan di tgh mlm, mungkin jam 12am, atau 1am, atau 2am; sy pn x pasti; sy terjaga dan dgr kelentang-kelentung di dapur.. Sy intai, rupanya abi tgh basuh pinggan, dgn masih pakai baju kerja x tukar2, lengan baju lipat ke paras siku.. Hu.. Gila bergaya abi pd saat itu! Ngee~ :) Kerana itu lah kot, ummi syg abi, sampai dia pernah main2 kata, kalau abi kawen lg satu, ummi akan patahkan kaki abi yg tempang itu (abi tempang slps kemalangan teruk dilanggar lori dolu2)..  Jd, sy agk yakin, walaupun abi agak berperilaku spt blur2/buat donoh, x ambil tahu etc; he actually does in a way only Allah+he know..

Jd kesimpulannya, adlh, kita (lebih tepat S.A.Y.A) selalu get the wrong msg / suuz zhon / buruk sangka.. A mood explosion may not be out of hatred, but is a gesture of trust. And, silence may not be out of ignorance, but out of suprising/hidden actions.. Mcm kita dgn Allah, kot2 Allah kasi ujian, kita rasa Allah x syg dah, tp Dia sbnrnye tgh trust kita to excel in that test.. Atau kita rasa Allah ni gila senyap x jawab2 doa kita ye, tp He's preparing suprises for us.. Jadi, ayuh berusaha jd org yg bila dibentangkn dgn situasi2 sebegini, kita can catch the wisdom behind them, instead of suuz zhon and again, don't really get it right.. :)

Haiyo.. Hidup ini indah kalau kita meng-indah-kan zhon-zhon kita ini.. Ngee~

Allahu'alam...

promo video

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

alhamdulillah.. ada masa bernafas.. kehidupan begitu mendesahkan dan menyemputkan, apatah lagi di musim demam batuk selsema.

 jumpe video2 nasheed baru yg dah ketinggalan updatenye..

antara yg smart adlh ini.. bygkn tgh main2 bola, tiba2 referee tiup wisel dan layangkan kad bersampul.. buka2 tulis 'selawat ke atas kekasih'..

oh.. dan juga, ketika di dalam flight pulang ke malaysia bbrp bulan lepas, tertengok movie yg best.. rsenye, bleh kata movie yg plg heart-warming buat masa ini.. last time yg diingat adlh 'laskar pelangi', and that was years ago.. no 18sx, ssuai utk ditonton bersama kanak2.. tahap heart-warming nye adlh anda akan terketawa, kemudian ter-ponder ttg hakikat kehidupan (deep, meaningful), kemudian ter-menangis.. oh! kadar tangisan agak tinggi, hinggakan terpaksa bbrp kali pause utk mengelakkan tangisan jd lebih teruk dan terkantoi..

Kaasan Mom's Life - kenapa ia deep dlm tawa dan tangis? sbb ia berkaitan ttg bagaimana menghadapi situasi yg meng-downkan, tp anda cuba buat yg terbaik utk jd gagah + acknowledge moments yg mungkin anda gagal utk jd segagah yg diharapkan..

Rieko Saibara (Kyoko Koizumi) is a cartoonist and mother of a 6-year-old boy and 4-year-old girl. When she has a difficult time, she throws away her problems with laughter. Her husband Kamoshitda (Masatoshi Nagase) used to be a war camera man, but now he's addicted to alcohol. He struggles to overcome his problem, but keeps failing. Finally, they get divorced. After Kamoshida loses his family, he realizes how precious they are. He focuses on getting away from alcohol, but another disease comes to him. Even though Saibara knows that he can not make it for long, she accepts him back to her family again. Since then a happy, but short, time exists for the family of four.


Based on the autobiographical award-winning comic "Mainichi Kasan" (first published by Mainichi Shimbun in October, 2002) by catoonist Rieko Saibara. Her husband was war photojournalist Yutaka Kamoshida.


Kejayaan movie ini so far :

• 2011 (14th) Shanghai International Film Festival - June 11-19, 2011 - Asian New Talent Award Film Competition
• 2011 (31st) Hawaii International Film Festival - October 13-23, 2011 - Spotlight on Japan
• Best Film - 2011 (14th) Shanghai International Film Festival - June 11-19, 2011

PS : Yah! Keena! Mesti tgk!

the WOW moments

bismillahirrahmanirrahim

smntara masih segar dgn apa yg dibawa pulang dr perjalanan2 (bermusafir), moga allah izinkan saya menulis beberapa perkara besar yg didapati spjg perjalanan2 tersebut..

1 - besarnya erti menjadi hamba allah yg sebenar-benarnya.

buat apa2 pun, orientasinya adlh allah.

kalau allah suka, dia buat. kalau allah x suka, dia pun sama meluat.

pergi sana-sini, kita diberi kesempatan berjumpa ramai org yg dah lama menapaki jalan ini, yg dah laksanakan mcm2 di jalan ini, yg dah feymes, yg dah dinosaur etc etc..

satu persamaan = apa2 yg mrk nasihati semuanya menyentakkan kita utk kembali kpd allah, menjadi hamba allah yg sebenar-benarnya.. ingt jumpe tokoh2, deme nk ckp benda2 berkaitan gerakan islam k, strategi bina khilafah k hape, alih2 deme dok sentuh topik yg sama - BACK TO BASIC (allah).. *mode insaf*

WOW 1 : "betapa terelnya biji rambutan ciptaan allah berbanding thumb drive ber-gig2.. thumb drive simpan byk2 data pn cuma boleh bwk kuar gambar rambutan kt monitor. tp, biji rambutan boleh bwk kuar pokok rambutan real" subhanallah!!

mcm2 lah moment2 WOW yg dialami..

WOW 2, WOW 3, WOW 4 dan WOW-WOW yg sterusnya!

2. an islamist is never an idealist/perfectionist.

tentunya dlm kepala kita, ada imaginasi2 ttg kehidupan daie yg ideal.. 'masanya tersusun, ada peruntukan masa utk ma'thuratnya, utk tilawahnya, utk qiamnya, utk bersama ahli keluarga, utk menghadiri usrah, etc etc.." ah! tp bila di dunia realiti, byk yg tak menepati idealisme tersebut. pergi kerja bos marah, terkejar2, kelam-kelibut etc etc..

tentunya dlm kepala kita, ada imaginasi ttg apa2 event yg kita laksanakan harus jd begitu begini.. 'smooth, ajk sume phm posisi masing2, transisi dr satu xtvt to other xtvt lancar, etc etc..' ah! tp bila tiba di dunia realiti, byk yg x tepati idealisme tersebut.. tetamu batalkan kehadiran last minute, ade ajk tarik diri, duit x cukup, peserta degil etc etc..

tentunya dlm kepala kita, ada imaginasi ttg perjalanan usrah yg ideal.. naqib/ahnya mantap (bleh quote ayat quran mana2 ke, pengisian yg diberi jelas etc) , pergi usrah rasa basah, usrahmates penyayang, daurah diisi ustaz2 yg best etc.. ah! tp bila tiba di dunia realiti, byk yg x menepati idealisme kita.

huhu.. kerana terlalu idealist/perfectionist, kita sering menjadikan our idealisme/expectations as our KPI (key performance index). klu x tepati idealisme kita, benda tu fail. jika ya, benda tu success..

lantaran itu, kita telah secara tak sedar terjerumus kpd bahaya2 berikut :

1 - sering merungut. walhal byk merungut itu tandanya tak redha dgn ketentuan allah.. tak ke cacat rukun iman kita.

2 - cpt give up. sbb tingginya idealisme kita, bila allah uji sikit kasi x smooth sesuatu aspek itu, kita rasa as if the whole thing adalah gagal.. walhal, dlm quran, byk allah mention 'la tai-asu', 'la taqnatu'..

3 - pesimis.. bila diuji sikit, kita cepat menggelabah dan hilang keyakinan utk menjayakan apa yg kita perlu laksanakan.. walhal, dlm quran, allah mention 2 kali berturut "Inna ma'al 'usri yusra". Ma'a = bersama. Ujian kesusahan itu dtg bersama dgn kesenangan. Ini bermakna, ketika kita sedang dlm kesusahan, kita sbnrnya turut diberi kesenangan. Cumanya, mata hati kita terlalu sepet utk melihat apakah kesenangan tersebut.

4 - kehilangan byk peluang. idealisme menyebabkan kita amplify/exaggerate sisi negatif sesuatu hinggakan kita x nampak sisi positifnya. teringat ada satu saying ni yg lebih kurng bgini bunyinya (setelah dimodifikasi mengikut ayat yg penulis phm) - "membezakan baik & buruk adlh terel. tp, mencari kebaikan dlm keburukan itu adlh jauh lg terel".

sbg cth, seorang tauke kasut menghantar 2 org salesman ke sebuah pulau yg x bertamadun utk mengkaji pasaran bg memulakan perniagaannya di sana. dan ini adlh repot salesman2 tersebut kpd bos mereka.

Salesman A : bos! sini mmg tak boleh jual kasut lah bos. org asli sini mana pakai kasut..

Salesman B : bos! sini mmg baik buat jual kasut bos. diorng sume x pakai kasut.

Huhu.. demikianlah 4 keburukan yg penulis dpt pikirkan jika kita terlalu idealist/perfectionist. an adequate dose of idealism/perfectionism adalah bagus sbg sbhgn dari akhlak kita itqan dlm kerja yg dilakukan.. namun, haruslah berpada2.

Allahu'alam..

the other half...

(assalamualaikum wrt)

........ is here >>> [click]

kelihatannya garang sekali..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

teka-teki : sapa pakcik misai garang dlm gambaq nih? siap terbeliak2 bijik mata dia nih..

*drumroll* pakcik Amru Khalid, pakcik paling feymes kat area2 arab nun!!!

is an Egyptian Muslim activist and television preacher. The New York Times Magazine, in reference to Khaled's popularity in Arab countries, described him in its April 30, 2006 issue as "the world's most famous and influential Muslim television preacher." Amr Khaled has recently been chosen as number 13 of the world's most influential people by Time Magazine^[2] and sixth most influential intellectual in the world by Prospect magazine.

Segarang2 muka beliau [ok, mungkin garang pd sy saja.. misai die mcm pakguard grng.. dan mata dia besar.. dan die ckp arab belaka, susah nak phm.. kompius bila suara dia kuat - die tgh semangat ke atau die tgh garang? :) ], ketahuilah bahawa..

Khaled's primary audience consists of Arabs ages fifteen through thirty-five who come from the upper middle class.^[6] Khaled believes these are the ones most capable of changing the Islamic world. He is noted for his understandable everyday language and his friendly approach, even joking at times during his lectures.

Memang kegilaan para remaja muda belia di Arab nun! Tapi, kasihan sekali (kpd kita), byk talk2/vid2 die dlm bahasa arab dialek mesir belaka.. tak dak sub2 nih.. Alhamdulillah, ada juga buku2 tulisan beliau diterjemahkan dlm bhs indon.. sekali pegang, terasa tak mau lepas2 dah! ruhi-basah-lencun-mendayu2-spiritual-motivating-bla-bla-bla-bla

Hoho.. kesimpulannye?

(1) jgn judgemental.. misai/saiz mata x menggambarkan keramahan seseorang..

(2) optimislah.. jika allah kasik kite feature yg agk brutal (suara parau/kuat, muka yg naturally garang], allah masih bagi kita kapasiti utk setel tugas khilafah + hablumminannas!

(3) belajar bahasa arab!!!

(4) there are so many cool ppl out there menyumbang utk islam.. maka, jdlh cool dgn contribute toward the same goal! capasity/kebolehan boleh jd berbeza2 tp goalnye ttp sama!!!

to infinity & beyond! ilal gannah! [= to heaven! phrase rekaan sindrik.. standard arabic wud be "ilal jannah", tp arab loghat mesir pronounce J as G..]

(5) agak out of topic.. tp cuba try link nih [tekan sini]

allahu'alam..

W-I-N-D-U

Assalamualaikum..

Sihat? muahhaahaha.. mne x sehat, pi finland makan fries smpe sos melimpah2~

muahahaha!!! [lina : ive read ur green note + received ur al-quran $.. jazakillah ye!]

huhuhuh...

dah berkali2 akk mimpi kita ada kat mesir lagi.. muahaha.. smlm lg x bleh blah.. kite ad another travelm8 lagi sorang - BECKHAM!!! sibuk gila beckham ni masuk mimpi akk.. muahaha.. akk x minat pn beckham..  :P

owh.. sbnrnye akk da cdg lme nk share sal ni dgn kome, dr egypt lagi, tp dihalang masa+malas+circumstances.. smpe mubarak dah jatuh2 pn, akk tak termention lg.. cam saspen plak ek!

1) mm.. akk mmg rse x best pi egypt tuh sbb selama ni klu akk gi jalan, akk follow senior, so mmg akk ni manja lah.. [sbb tuh kalau korng perasan, akk mlayan korng pn x de lah sister-ly sgt.. akk kat rumah pn byk adik2 laki.. so, akk lebih suka mengambil sikap father-ly.. biar korng bermain lepas puas2.. kalau terjatuh, terhentak bru akk interfere] alih2 kali ni akk sorang2 n bwk adik2.. dan kehendak allah, kita tersepit di tgh2 revolusi.. jujur, kalau org tanya, akk dah x larat dah! muahahha.. harap korng x berkecil hati..

2) walau bagaimanapun, di tgh2 rasa berat tggjwb, allah campakkan rasa rindu yg mendalam2 membuak2 kat korng lah, kat mesir lah etc.. korng mmg terbaeeekk!!! dah berkali2 akk mimpi ada kat egypt lagi ni ha.. nek meroyan aku!!! rasa rindu! fave part akk of all our vacations, adlh duduk2 x buat apa2 kat kedai makan russian muslimah @ dhahab sbb time tu farah tgh sakit!! muahhaha.. kegembiraan gua di atas kesakitan org lain!! hahaha... x lah.. akk suke, sbb time tuh rse mcm family.. sume rse close.. <3 so, kirenye, bercampur-baur lah perasaan ni.. rse berat + tak sanggup + rindu utk berada dlm keadaan yg sme bla bla.. 

3) akk kelam kelabut + serabut + kusut.. terima kasih bebanyak kerana memberi amanah + kepercayaan kpd akk utk menjaga korng spjg perjalanan.. muahaha.. sian korng.. maaf ye ats kekurangan, salah silap.. moga Allah redha! jugak, kalau korng terasa akk lari laju2 from imigresen p kat plane, sbb akk mmg dlm kepala nk kejar plane, suruh tunggu kite sume smpe.. bile akk dah lepas, x nmpk plak korng, akk jalan kat luar bangunan tuh smpe kat tmpt yg die cek2 beg tuh [tmpt yg akk tingglkn lotion tuh..] tp korng x de plak.. dlm kepala akk mmg dah pikir, kalau korng x dtg2, akk mmg x nek plane lah n kite figure out sme2 camne nak balik rusia balik.. uhuuhu.. rupe2nye korng dah ade dkt pakcik tuh, tgh bg tiket.. :P

4) jazakillahu khayran kathiran (moga dibalas oleh Allah sbyk2nye!!!) sbb di tengah2 kekalutan yg berlaku spjg kita sama2 bermusafir, di saat kita sume masing2 ada konflik emosi (takut, cuak, uncertainty, bla2) korng masih gagah membuat lawak, berloya buruk, berperangai sengal, bergelak ketawa, menahan muka dr memaparkan ketakutan, banyak mulutnya kuat bersembang, senyap dan baik, bla bla bla.. dan itu lah antara yg menguatkan kita antara satu sama lain! [wah! rindu smpe rase nak tampar2 korng kalau jumpe..] korng mmg TERBAEEEKKK!!!!

5) akk mengagumi sifat pemurah korng.. x berkira... pantang jumpe pengemis, misti pantas menghulur duit! akk pn jauh terkebelakang berbanding korng.. moga allah kekalkan sifat pemurah itu hingga ke akhir hayat.. moga ianya dipilih sbg amal2 ikhlas + menjadi harta yang menyelamatkan korng dr api neraka..

6) korng.. ingt x kite mkn KFC kat cairo tuh, akk cam pelik2 sket.. smpe spe ntah ade kata 'nk makan slain KFC ke kak?'.. huhu.. sbnrnye akk boikot brg yahudi, yg termasuk lah dlmnye KFC.. huhu.. dan akk sgtlah tak brani nk eksplen kat korng sbb bile korng nmpk gambaq pakcik kentaki tuh, akk leh nmpk sinar2 kegembiraan di mata korng... n korng pn x prnh tau kene boikot brg2 Yahudi nih.. moga itu lah KFC terakhir akk + korng juge biiznillah.. [P/S : sbg kontrol damage, akk dah derma duit yg lebih kurng sme sum mknn @ KFC tuh kat bdn tertentu..]

7) kan ade mlm2 yg kita dgr pengisian.. subhanallah, muka korng ade yg excited!!! ada yg tanya "npe cam x pernah dgr pn kak?" akk pn tak tau nak jwb ape.. ada yg tak henti cam tnye2/excited.. subhanallah!! jom2 truskan! <3

8) ingt x waktu kite tersepit di tengah2 ujian Allah, kita jadi lagi byk ingat kat Allah, kita pn tercari2 Al-Quran utk dibaca, solat kita lebih khusyu', doa lebih lama.. moga ia berterusan dlm keadaan kita gembira di tgh2 nikmat Allah sbb barangsiapa yg menjaga Allah ketika senang, Allah akn menjaga dia ketika dia susah! [ne tau plak kan, korng p finland lg ke mkn fries x ingt akk, pastu kat finland pn terjadi revolusi gak..] 

kerana mereka : mandi x basah, makan x kenyang

HUHUHU.. moga Allah meredhai perjalanan + persahabatan kita! siyes nih - windu windu windu!! [korng ade taruk ape2 ubat pengasih ke dlm biskut2 yg korng kasik akk mkn ha??!!]

:P

Viva La Revolution!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Esok sekolah akn bermula.

I've been in Egypt from 22nd-30th Jan. Subhanallah, what's an experience.. Never thought of writing those experiences in this blog, because there are too much things to say that I would be beyond exhausted. As soon as I arrived Moscow, I've to share with other sisters what I experienced there for few times, not including ummi wa abi.. For full report, click here (privyet).

And, soon, ada post circulated among blogs I follow/know commenting on Malaysian students' cowardice. And, that includes me. I don't read them. They're somehow true. While Egyptians are fighting against tyranny, I was busy being selfish to save myself. It's not like I'm that keen to join the demo, be @ Tahrir Square what-so-ever..It just that I don't have enough emphatic concern towards what Misr (Egypt) is going through even some simple thoughtful gestures.. Instead, saya merasa agak 'bangga' kerana berjaya membawa pulang dengan selamatnya 3 org adik2 di bawah jagaan saya.. Duh..

Berikut adalah sebahagian perkara yg menyentak pemikiran sy :

Guy Fawkes of V for Vendetta [gambar : www.zagasi.com]

• Akhawat Jordan yang turut menumpang rumah akhawat Egypt meninggalkan akhawat Egypt dgn tangisan. And, I wasn't.. Hati kering, or am I too Russian-ize to cry? :(
• Kami duduk di Kautsar, rumah akhawat Mesir yang terletak di Kasr el-Ainy, yang terletak dkt dgn metro Sayyida Zaynab. Syyida Zaynab tuh selatan of the famous Tahrir Square [malam2 kat rumah tuh bleh dgr bunyi tembak2]. Bangunan depan rumah akhawat Egypt yg kami tumpangi ade markaz bahasa arab + sirah. Ada pakcik di situ yg dikatakan anak murid (possible gak kalau anak usrah) kepada Sy Ramadan al-Buti (penulis Fiqh Sirah). Akhawat2 ni ada gak join talaqi sirah yg dibuat pakcik tuh berejam2. Kata mereka, menusuk masyuk sangat2 sampai dengar bisa melelah air mata. Ruhi habes!
• Waktu 26 January, demonstarsi berlaku, tapi masih terkawal.. Kami sempat round2 Kaherah dibawa oleh travel agent. Kami mengelak dr pergi ke tempat2 demo. On our way back, lalu area2 tahrir, tepi nil, area2 bridge.. dekat dgn national tv (propaganda gila stsesen tv kerajaan nih.. malam2 kami berkurung ketika curfew, tv tunjuk keadaan nil yg super tenang + terkawal.. haram!!), nampak ramai gile orang beruniform kawal.. stesen TV mmg ptg, sbb kalau dpt twn, kite bleh hijack tv n declare "Mubarak dah jatuh!"..  mmg teringat lah kat V for vendetta. 
• Bahasa Arab baku/fushah memang terbaek, menusuk! The night before our flight was scheduled to fly, memang dah diberitakan banyak penerbangan dikandaskan. Kami cubalah call no Egypt Air yg dimention dalam berita. Dia kata "la (tak) mumkin (mungkin) ittisal (dihubungi) bihazihil (dengan ini) raqam (nombor)".. Dengarnye "la mumkin" memang dah nampak malapnye sinar2 harapan. 
• Muslimahs/Muslims are connected in weird warm way and we're treated warmly. @ Cairo Airport on 30th, sy dgn serabutnya cuba menyusup melalui lautan2 kelompok manusia yang tengah mengerumuni kaunter Egypt Air. Yolah! Skit punya ramai terkandas, dia bukak 1 kaunter jah. Too many men, that I retreated & I asked this 1 mat salleh how can I get to the counter. So, he was making this one way at the side of the flock, so that I can get to counter tanpa perlu berebut2 with other men, and alhamdulillah! other men were also making way for me + keeping distance away from me.. Who said Muslim (esp Arabian) aren't gentlemen? When I was at the front of the counter, other women follow beside me (one woman beside me asked me to help her ask the ppl @ counter about her flight too & I got this feeling as if we're connected in warm-Muslimah ukhuwah!), and I heard shoutings at the back "'aib! aib!" Huhuh.. because we're too close with other men, eventhough everyone was trying to keep a distance away. Less than 10 minutes, a special counter for women were opened. Terima kasih.  
• Tengok vid ni.. (best Egypt revolution vid I've seen so far) huhu.. meremang.. duh.. rasa bersalah.. terfikir, kalau sy adalah seorng org Islam yg prihatin, mungkin sy boleh lari dr Egypt dgn cara yang jauh lebih bermaruah, bukannya dengan cara seorang yg selfish.. eg jumpe pakcik Fiqh Sirah dpn rumah, kata sy dah nak balik + kata sy bersama perjuangan rakyat Mesir + tanya apa yg boleh sy bantu dlm kemampuan sy (as if mintak izin, bleh tak sy balik ni pakcik.. pakcik tgh susah2.. sy plak sibuk nak selamatkan diri sindri)... huhuhu... terasa sepertinya ayat2 al-quran berkenaan lari dr perang menyindir2.. Moga, jika kita ditakdirkan lagi berada dalam situasi utk pilih selfish/contributing, Allah beri kita choice yang Dia redha.

Allahu'alam.. 

the faraway land

bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

tomorrow's [jan 9] the d-day - sudan's referendum. hmmm... jujurnya, saya sendiri tak tahu the magnitude of the event & what's exactly it's all about. no thanks kepada ketiadaan khilafah yang menyatukan umat islam & no thanks also to the colonial's divide & rule policy. =.=' 1ummah, 1aqidah.

RELIABLE resources are limited. but, if it's not in media, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. [quoting mr tariq ramadan's you shall not kill] this is WHO SUDAN IS to me :

• an african country. lagi2 famous pasal civil war, khartoum. full stop. [antara siapa sama siapa gaduh pun dok tau.. tau2 je ramai orang sengsara, mati, perlukan bantuan]
• spoken arab dia masih fushah/baku gitu. dgr2 crita dr abi/ustaz2 sudan sesuai dibuat tempat belajar agama. kalau tengok documentary pasal sudan, pakcik2 petani / pengembala kambing yang speaking arab tuh, boleh lah kita decipher apa kah perkataan yang dia cakap. jadi kalau dengar tuh, memang sedap2 telinga. kalau kat jordan/syria, spoken arabic dia hancus/pasar habess.. eg apa nama awak. fushah/baku - masmuk? pasar - syusmik? =.='
• sudan's referendum. sebab asek dok civil war, maka it's decided baik buat poll ttg decision utk break-up from 1 united sudan to 2 different countries - south & north sudan. syeikh yusuf qardhawi dan ulama' lainnya bilang, haram berpisah ni (source : eramuslim dan ikhwanweb). polling akan berlangsung dari 9-15 january, dan keputusan hanya akan keluar 3 minggu kemudian.

Apakah yang bisa kita mampu sumbangkan? [sendiri pun tak pasti. berikut hanyalah pandangan peribadi]

1. tanya/consult naqib/ah anda.. if u don't have any, find 1 

2. rabithah-rabithah-rabithah! 

3. spek mata Islam. berhati2 ketika membaca berita lebih-lebih lagi dari mainstream media. be critical, don't telan bulat2. 

Allahu'alam..  

Rahmatan lil 'alamin

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Metro laju. Adalah hampir/lebih 10 stesen untuk sampai ke destinasi. Di sebelah hanya satu tempat kosong. Seorang kanak-kanak duduk & ibunya berdiri. Dalam kengantukan, kedengaran sepertinya si ibu kata lagi 2 stesen sampai destinasi mereka. Jadi, tak terasa obliged untuk bangun bagi tempat duduk kat si ibu apatah lagi memikirkan destinasi yang nun jauh di penghujung line. Tertidur dan bangun-bangun sudah di destinasi. Si ibu & anak turun. Rupa-rupanya kami menuju destinasi yang sama [entah-entah si ibu cakap 12 stesen, bukan 2]. Ternyata, that was so not gentleman for any muslim/muslimah. 1 mission failed - a small scale of rahmatan lil 'alamin. 

And this is a larger failure of rahmatan lili 'alamin. (to watch)

Lama dahulu sewaktu Umar al-Faruq ra memerintah, Islam berjaya mengalahkan Rom di Mesir. 'Amr ('Amru) ibn al-'As ra adalah komander yang memimpin tentera Islam dalam misi membuka Mesir, dan kemudiannya menjadi Gabenor Mesir. Alkisah, anak Amru telah naik tocang. Kita serahkan kepada penulis jemputan - almarhum Syed Qutb untuk meneruskan cerita menerusi (copy-paste-edit) tulisannya dalam Tafsir Fi Zilal untuk surah al-Asr & Hazaddeen.

Pernah terjadi insiden seorang anak Qibti berjaya mengalahkan anak Amru bin al-As, pembuka dan pemerintah Mesir di dalam satu pertandingan lalu anak Amru telah memukul anak lelaki Qibti ini dan berbangga-bangga dengan keturunannya sambil berkata: "Nah ambil ini dari seorang anak bangsawan."  Lelaki Qibti ini mengadu kepada Umar al-Khattab ra. Lalu Umar mengenakan hukuman pukul balas kepada anak Amru pada musim haji di hadapan ramai orang dan berkata: "Bila lagi awak memperhambakan manusia, sedangkan mereka dilahirkan ibu mereka dengan keadaan merdeka?"

It's a big deal. Sebabnya sebelum Islam datang, pakcik Qibti (Coptic Christian) dan rakyat Mesir yang lain ketika itu dijajah Rom yang terkenal kejamnya. Seharusnya, pakcik Qibti ni yang lain dah lali/familiar dah dengan anak-anak bangsawan yang kerek dan mereka pun dah malas dah nak kecoh-kecoh.. 

Katakanlah yang cari pasal ni adalah anak Gabenor Rom, adakah pakcik ini mempunyai self-confidence dan self-esteem untuk menghadap Maharaja Rom untuk mengadu tentang pegawai dia yang tak reti ajar anak? 

Alih-alih, bila Islam membebaskan bumi Mesir, pakcik ni punya self-esteem mendadak naik. Tak de langsung inferiority complex nak jumpe Umar ra yang dah berjaya mengalahkan 2 big governments/empires of that time - Rom & Parsi, which at our time would be equivalent to US & EU. Dan pakcik Qibti ni pi bukannya naik kapal terbang landing kat Heathrow ke hape.. Dia naik unta je dari Mesir pi Madinah berbulan-bulan. Sanggup tu.. Punya pakcik ni yakin khalifah akan layan dia. Punya pakcik ni yakin there would be no bureaucratic nonsense. Tak takut ke by the time jumpe khalifah, isu tu dah basi dan anak dia pun dah kembali sihat wal-afiat. 

Tapi.. Alhamdulillah.. Pakcik ni gillerrr yakin terhadap betapa Islam tu rahmatan lil 'alamin, sampaikan dia yang sebelum ni hina-dina di bawah kerajaan Rom berani mengadu kat khalifah. Pakcik ni gillerrr yakin terhadap betapa Islam tu rahmatan lil 'alamin, sampaikan dia yang memang bukan orang Islam pun yakin Islam would protect his dignity & rights. 

Contoh mudahlah... Ada ke sapa-sapa homeless kat Rusia yang pernah pi report tak puas hati awat nasib mereka tak terbela kat Putin/Medvedev face-to-face, eye-to-eye? 

Homeless kid @ Yekaterinburg, Russia
(pict from www.baptistcollege.edu)

Ni yang buat kita rindu/excited/tak-sabar nak cecah zaman di mana peace is everywhere macam hadis Rasulullah saw ketika Khabab ra ngadu tak tahan asyik kena dera dek Quraisy.

... Sungguh Allah akan menyempurnakan agama ini hingga orang yang berkendaraan tidak merasa takut, kecuali hanya kepada Allah, saat melintas dari Shan’a ke Hadramaut. Begitu pula tanpa takut serigala akan memakan kambingnya. Akan tetapi kalian bersikap tergesa-gesa.” (HR. Al-Bukhari no. 6943)

Ketika zaman yang tenang itu, danger yang memang manusia boleh control seperti kadar jenayah rompak, kadar jenayah rogol etc memang berjaya dibanteras. Kalau ada bahaya pun, itu bahaya yang kita susah nak control kerana melibatkan nature/alam seperti bencana alam, banjir, patukan ular, serangan gajah/serigala/harimau/babi hutan etc etc.. 

Jom jadi duta kecil Islam. Rahmatan lil 'alamin! :)

Allahualam..